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Client
Well, I’m fearful and I’m cranky, and I’ve got head and neck and all my Lyme stuff coming back to bite me. To my brain is really foggy, it feels inflamed. I can’t think properly. I’m mixing up my words.
Fear, loneliness and anger, frustration.
Just so sick of it. I’m so sick of it. And I’m trying not to blame myself for overdoing it, which I know is definitely an element of it. But I also know that normal people could do what I’ve done over the last two weeks and just be tired.

Lisa Gumieniuk
Alright, so we’re going to do some tapping now on your Lyme and symptoms and how they have come back and you’re so angry about it.
On a scale it’s minus eight, yep. at minus 10 your usual and then of course the 10.
On the karate chop point
Even though even though
I’m so angry
My Lymie symptoms have come back
I deeply completely love and accept myself

Even though
I’m so angry that my Lyme symptoms have comeback
And I feel it in my solar plexus
And in my calves and feet
My forehead
And it has this greeny colour
I deeply completely love and accept myself
And I except myself and where I am right now

Even though my Lyme symptoms feel like they are coming back.
I’m so angry about it.
I deeply completely love and accept myself anyway.
and I accept where I am right now.

This anger.
This anger.
This anger I feel.
I feel so angry.
My symptoms are coming back.
I have all of these symptoms.
And I’m so angry about it.
Breathing in, breathing out. Breathing in and breathing out.

Just tuning into that energy, your symptoms are coming back and you’re really angry about it. On that scale now minus 10 zero positive 10 where about’s is it now?
Client
The anger is probably at a -4.
Lisa
Okay, so we’re doing a bit more tapping on that.

Even though
I still have some anger around my Lyme symptoms coming back.
I choose to love and accept myself anyway.
And where I am right now.
Even though.
My Lyme symptoms feel like they are coming back.
I can feel it in my body.
I’m so angry it feels like my symptoms are coming back.
I choose to love and accept myself anyway.
And where I am right now.

A nice yawn letting it go.

This anger I feel.
I’m so angry.
This anger that I feel.
So angry.
So angry that my symptoms are coming back.
So angry that my symptoms are coming back.
So angry.
So angry.
I’m so angry and frustrated that my symptoms have come back.
I’m so angry and frustrated that my symptoms have come back.
I can feel it in body. So much anger in my body.
This anger I my solar plexus.
I feel so angry.

Lisa
And breathing. Breathing out. Breathing in, breathing out. Just tuning into the symptoms come back and you’re so angry about it. Where would you put that on the scale now?
Client
Sorry
Lisa
That’s a beautiful energy clear. Yawning is one of the biggest side effects of tapping.
Client
Excellent. All right. Definitely reduced going into the positive about one or two.
Lisa
Okay, fantastic. So what would be the next level or layer? Okay, so I think the anger has shifted into sadness grief, this something like it’s grief for the loss of the life …I feel I should be having. That’s probably sitting in a minus 10
Lisa
Where do you feel it in your body?
Client
My chest, My eyes, heavy on my chest.
Yellow colour.
Lisa
What emotions come up for you?
Client
Grief, sadness, disappointment.
Lisa
So you’re … around grief, enjoyment of life that you feel you should be having.
On a scale of minus 10 to positive 10.
Client
It’s a minus 10.
Lisa
And you feel it in your chest and eyes and the color that you feel is yellow, and some of the emotions are grief, sadness and disappointment.
Client
Yeah.
Lisa
Alright. So let’s do some tapping on that now. So tapping on the karate chop point.
Even though
I feel so much grief
For the enjoyment of life that I should be having
And I feel it in my chest and eyes
I choose to accept myself anyway.

Even though,
I’ve got so much grief for enjoyment of life I should be having right now
I deeply and completely love and accept myself
And I choose to accept the situation and where I am right now
Even though
I feel so much grief for the enjoyment of life that I should be having
And I feel it in my chest and in my eyes
But I deeply, completely love and accept myself
And I accept where I am right now
This grief
This grief that I feel
This grief that I feel
So much grief
So much sadness
So much disappointment
This grief that I’m feeling
This grief that I’m feeling in my chest and in my eyes

Breathing in, Breathing in.

So the scale?
Client
It’s a -8.
Lisa
Did anything else for you?
Client
Ummm. Basically teary.
Lisa
And is there anything associated with the teary.
Client
The frustration it’s just a .. I’m so over this. So over this. But it also feels like there is grief shifting.
Like I’m doing another layer at the moment.
Lisa
Even though
I still have grief for the enjoyment of life
That I should be having right now
I deeply, completely love and accept myself anyway
And I choose to shift this now
It’s shifting a little bit now
Even though I’ve done so much grief for the enjoyment of life I should be having
So much sadness and disappointment
In my chest and in my eyes
I choose to love and accept myself anyway
And where I am right now
Even though I’ve got so much grief, and it’s still there for the enjoyment of life I should be having
Choose to love and accept myself anyway
And where I am right now
So much grief
It’s starting to shift
My grief is starting to shift
I’m starting to shift this layer
I am starting to see new layers
I’m starting to see new layers beyond the grief beyond the grief.
I’m starting to move beyond the grief
Move beyond the sadness and disappoint
All this grief sadness and disappointment
All this grief sadness and disappointment
I feel it in my chest and my eyes
All this grief sadness and disappointment
I’m so over this
I’m so over this
I am so over this
I am so over this
I am so over this
Grief, sadness and disappointment
So over this
So over this and it’s time to let it go.
Let it go.
Let it all go.
It is time to let it go.
Breathing in
I know I’ve been holding on to it.
And it’s time to let it go.
This grief sadness and disappointment.
It’s time to let it go.
It’s starting to shift
Starting to let it go
I’m choosing to let it go
I’m choosing to let it go now
I’m choosing to say the next layers of enjoyment of life

Breathing in and breathing out. Breathing and breathing out

Lisa
Just tuning into that statement that you’re got grief for enjoyment of life that you should be having right now. Where does that fit on that scale?
Client
We’re at a zero.
Lisa
And it was a minus eight to begin with.
So, what’s coming up?
Client
Ummm, you know, just at the end of that kind of felt like, it is possible. Like I’ve lost a little bit of my you know, the possible to have that.
Lisa
What is possible?
Client
That I could have a happy life. That there is more layers of enjoyment. I’m feeling very stuck in the suffering. And that’s not always me and you know me, I go hell for leather sometimes.

Lisa
So just tuning into stuck and suffering. Where would you put that on the scale?
Client
When I’m stuck in the suffering?
Lisa
What about right now do you feel distressed by being stuck in suffering? Or has been tapping help to relieve some of that?
Client
It’s helped with that, like it’s, it’s moving. I’ve just been really aware and it’s probably because of the constellation work that we did too. I’ve just had a week of feeling really lonely. Like really, which is what came up so no surprises are amplified. Like I went to a wedding and just felt like I’m the only person that knows what it’s like to be at a wedding as a widow. You know, we had all Halloween which was awesome, but all the family. But all the families had Halloween and all my neighbors are having these drinks out the front and on their own my I’m packing up my stuff. There was just that real amplified loneliness. And I’m really conscious of getting that message that it’s time to let go of that.
And it’s silly because I’ve probably socialized more in the last week than I have in the last six months. But if anything it highlighted loneliness, not belonging and connectedness, yeah.
Lisa
And where does that where that coming from?
Client
From that feeling of not feeling like everybody else.
Lisa
So is it that you don’t feel like you’re like everyone else or is it that you’re not? …That feeling of not belonging and not connected?
Client
Yeah, not connected.
Lisa
Just not connected to others or not belonging and connected to others
Client
Not belonging and connected others.
Lisa
On a scale on that scale.
Client
That’s massive at the moment that’s a minus 10
Lisa
Is that bigger than a -10?
Client
Yeah, that’s as far as it can go. It’s a big one at the moment.
Lisa
So, not belonging and not connected to others. And it’s even beyond a -10 and it’s as far as it can go.

Even though
I feel like I don’t belong, and I’m not connected to others
I deeply completely love and accept myself anyway
Even though I feel like I don’t belong
and not connected to others
I deeply, completely love and accept myself
Even though I feel like I don’t belong
I’m not connected to others
I deeply completely love and accept myself anyway
and accept where I am right now
I don’t belong
I just don’t belong
I’m just not connected to others
I just don’t connect with others
I just don’t feel like I belong
I feel like I don’t belong
I’ve had so many social gatherings this week
I feel like I don’t belong
I feel like I belong
I went to a wedding and I felt like I didn’t belong
And had Halloween and there were lots of people in the streets and I still don’t belong
Halloween and and the wedding. I just didn’t belong
On Halloween I didn’t belong
I didn’t belong at the wedding
I just feel disconnected
I just feel disconnected from the people around me
I feel like I just don’t belong
Feel like I don’t belong and connect with others
People around me
People around me when I feel like I connect with them
And I don’t feel that they understand me and what I’m going through
My health, and being a widow, and being a single mum of two
I feel like I don’t belong
With others around me
Breathing in. Breathing in

Lisa
Tuning into ..Feeling like you don’t belong or connect.
Client
That’s funny while we were doing that, at first I got really angry because I was like, it’s the friggin Lyme’s fault again. And I don’t belong. In a social situation when I’m healthy I do got. The Lyme causes social anxiety, and all the things that make me feel like I disconnect. And then as we move forward I kind of thought where this isn’t real, this is a construct, like this isn’t.. this isn’t true at all. You do connect with a lot of people, people are drawn to you. That’s not the truth, but you block things going any further.
Lisa
So, on that scale, where would you put not belonging feeling like you don’t belong?
Client
Probably at a minus two. And it’s still it’s still there, but it’s moved back into that loneliness feeling like I think I just had that .. yeah I don’t quite know how to describe it like it some. Yes, I feel like I don’t belong and all the rest of it, but I know I’m doing it. Sort of not It’s not my fault because it’s circumstantial. Like I could have gone across to the neighbors for a couple of drinks. But I also couldn’t off because I had two kids, I had to get to bed. Now I could have stayed at the wedding and had more drinks. A dance with the girls. But um, but I couldn’t because I had to pick kids up from school and then get them to the school disco.
So my circumstances just restrict me and I do what needs to be done. I’ve just lost that balance of fun.
Lisa
Even though
I feel like I don’t belong, and I’m not connected with others
I feel lonely
I choose to love and accept myself anyway
Even though I still feel like I don’t belong
And I don’t connect other others.
And it’s because I feel lonely
I deeply and completely love and accept myself anyway
Even though I feel like I don’t belong and I’m not connected to others because I feel lonely
And it’s my choice
I deeply and completely lovely and accept myself anyway.

Feelings of loneliness, around connecting and belonging with others.
Feeling lonely
Not belonging not connected
Not belonging not connected
Feeling lonely
Feeling lonely
Not belonging not connected to others
Feeling lonely
Because I have to make choices
For me and for my family
And it feels lonely
Feeling disconnected from others
And feeling lonely
Feeling disconnected from others and feeling lonely

Breathing in. Breathing in.
Lisa
Tuning into not belonging and not connect with others, where would you put that on the scale?
Client
A +2.
Lisa
And component of loneliness
Client
+6.
Lisa
And you know what it was previously?
Client
It would have been about a -4.
Lisa
So you started off with angry that your symptoms were coming back that was a -8 and then it went to a +1 or +2.
Then there was some sadness and grief, for the loss of the life that you feel that you should be having. And that was a -8 and then it went to 0.
And then now have … Feeling lonely, not belonging not connected to others. So the loneliness when from a -4 to a +6 and then not belonging went from a minus 10 to a + 2.
Are you ready to do some positive imprinting now?
Client
Yes.
Lisa
How would you like to feel? How would you like how would you like your life to be?
Client
Connected, purposeful, and full of joy?
Lisa
And what does that visualisation look like?
Client
Healthy, energetic & laughing.
Lisa
Even though, I’ve got health challenges, and life challenges
I choose to feel connected, purposeful and full of joy.
Feeling healthy
Feeling joyful
Lots of laughter
Feeling connected
to myself and to others
and to the events that I go to
Feeling purposeful
Feeling joyful
What if I could feel connected?
What if I could feel purposeful
What if I could feel joyful?
What if I could feel joyful?
I could feel healthy.
What if I could laugh?
How would it be if I could be joyful?
How would I feel if I was joyful?
I feel connected to others
How would I feel if I was connected to myself?
How would I feel if I was joyful?
How would I feel if I was healthy?
How would I feel if I had lots more laughter in my life?
Breathing in.

So just tuning into how you feel about going forward in your life with a connected, purposeful. Joy.
How real does that feel now?
Client
What do we think XXX move forward, connected, purposeful and full of joy? How does that sound? Good? +6. It still feels like it’s in the future. Was I want it to be like today.
Lisa
Even though
I feel like these positive feelings are in the future.
Not something that I can feel now
I do think completely love and accept myself anyway.
Even though I feel like these positive feelings are so far away
From how I feel right now
I deep and completely love and accept myself anyway
Even though I feel like these feelings are not achievable right now.
I deeply and completely love and accept myself anyway.

These feelings are so far away
and I feel like I can attain them today.
I don’t feel like I can connected, joyful and full of laughter
It feels like it’s so far away

Is that True? NO. It was a few moments ago?
Now if feel like it is achievable
Feels like I can achieve connectedness and joy
And I can happen fulfill my purpose
Happy and healthy, and I can experience laughter
And I can experience laughter and I can experience it now
I don’t need to wait until the future
I can experience it and I don’t need to wait into the future

Breathing in. Breathing in.

Lisa
How does that feel for you? Feeling those in your life now?
Client
Feels like I want to welcome in the people and the situations that will create that. Is it still a + 6? Possibly a +7 it hasn’t jumped completely yet.
Lisa
So I just tuning into how you felt when we first started the session. Verse how you feel now?
Client
All right, the anger is definitely gone. A little bit of frustration. But it’s more motivating frustration then a de-motivating frustration as it was.
There’s a new patience. Because I know I can’t get over … and know that stuff’s coming. Like I feel like I keep saying that. I know that stuff’s coming. But then I’m like, Well, how long do I have to wait?
Lisa
Just tuning into your overall energy when you started vs your energy now.
Client
Yeah, okay. definitely improved. Like I’ve still got yukky symptoms and are still, you know, and feeling nausea and stuff like that.
Lisa
But how do you feel in in relation to those symptoms? So, you have those symptoms, but how do you …What’s the emotional connection because when you first started emotional connection was that you were really angry.
Client
Yeah. The emotional connection now is still frustration, but it’s Like, just be kind to yourself, you know, this will pass which I was saying to myself but not believing. Yeah.
Lisa
And so now you believe that?
Client
Yeah. Okay.
Lisa
Yeah. So the level of distress that you had a before the session, vs the level of distress that you have now.
Client
Probably from a -8 to a +5.
It’s good. It’s positive. It’s shifting. Like I think all of these at the moment is just like, yeah, I’m really teary and stuff and that’s a you know, it’s shifting it. I feel like I’m moving a layer of the grief that I didn’t even realize was still there. Yeah.
Lisa
Grief in relation to illness or connection.
Client
I think grief just in relation to the fact that my life got ***** up. Which it didn’t like that’s another belief we should work on at some point. Is as much as I hate to admit it, this did happen for a reason. So I need to move into that reason. Let’s just talk kindness Yeah, it is. It’s funny. It’s a really, and it’s good. It’s obviously clearing, but it’s a real. What it is that grief again, and I guess I’ve been racing around for weeks at the moment, being able to stuff it down and ignore it.